Trying To Sort It All Out
Not sure where to start. I'm tired.
COVID changed everything.
Somewhere along the line, I lost my passion for life.
Not sure why.
My counselor tells me it happening everywhere.
I see it on tv and I hear it on podcasts, so it can't be all me. I'm not suicidal or anything like that.
Not sure where to start. I'm tired.
COVID changed everything.
Somewhere along the line, I lost my passion for life.
Not sure why.
My counselor tells me it happening everywhere.
I see it on tv and I hear it on podcasts, so it can't be all me. I'm not suicidal or anything like that.
I was told just to write my thoughts down so I can process them, but I feel like I need more.
It seems like stuff I have dug my heels into is not the grounding I need at this point.
Often times I wonder about even going to school.
I feel pretty f*&%#d up.
Loans, repayment, tuition assistance, it just gets overwhelming.
Maybe I'm just spoiled. I don't know.
It just feels like everything has changed.
People I know not in school are making more starting out than my own mother who has worked at the same job for 29 years.
I just don't understand.
So, why get into debt when work is abundant.
Teachers are on edge. Counselors are tired. And the students?
We just wonder.
Today I found out I have to have surgery to possibly save my life. A life I am wondering about.
It's a hereditary condition that I..well..inherited.
Do I keep going?
I feel like so much support for my recovery will be needed.
Not sure where that will come from between criminal justice studies, psychology and political science.
I just don't know. What I do know is I just somehow have to keep going.
All of us are fucked up during this time.
I'm sure someone probably feels the same way I do - at least a few times, ya know.