I’M OK

Dear Diary,

I’ve held it together for so long. Between school and working two jobs, I’m tired. But I also feel selfish and unappreciative for complaining, because I’m blessed to have access to an education unlike many. I’m blessed for my parents. All at the same time, I’m tired and holding it all together for them. They worked hard to get me where I am now. As much as I want to give up, I can’t. I know I can do it, but I’m tired. I feel like if someone were to ask me simply and genuinely, “how are you doing?” I would breakdown. But I’m okay. I’m also afraid for the future. I have hope that my degree will take me places, but there is still some fear and doubt that it won’t. I want to be happy. I want to be successful.