Drained.

Dear Diary,

I am mentally, physically, and emotionally drained.

I feel like I can sleep the whole day away.

I wish that I could take a break from everything and everybody, but I have no money to take a nice vacation.

I pray everyday to remain positive but lately I've been thrown.

I feel like I have nothing left inside of me but yet I cover up my pain.

Every time people see me, I have a big smile across my face, but little do you know, I am suffering on the inside.

I wish I could be replenished or something. I always seem to put others before myself.

I don't know if I can continue to be there for others because who is there for me?

This is my cry for help.

I AM DRAINED I tell you but I don't know how to express my feelings verbally.

So I am writing this diary entry and maybe someone will understand.

I wish I was put first instead of feeling like I am bugging.

I wish I felt appreciated but I feel used.

I wish I could pour my heart out, but then I would get taken for granted.

I wish I could trust someone but people are steadily changing.

I hate feeling alone but yet I feel this way everyday on top of being drained.

I need someone to check up on me instead of me pretending to be the "strong friend," but I feel like when it is my turn to need someone to listen, nobody is there...